Radical Faith and Trust

Updated: Mar 12

John Lennon said, "Life is what happens while you're busy making other plans," well, that's how life has been showing up en masse in my life of late. Every year brings a new theme, however, my entire life has turned 180 degrees since August 2017 and, in hindsight, I wouldn't have it any other way.

In August 2017 I walked away from a very successful career and New Age business as a voice channel for the ascended masters, and other beings, whom I had come to discover were not anywhere close to whom they were professing to be. Realizing that I had been professionally serving evil forces for 21 years of my life was devastating. For 25 years of my life I studied and believed completely in their satanic doctrine and became completely brainwashed by their evil mind-set. I had spent exactly half of my life loyal to these demonic forces, all the time thinking I was serving God. Let me at this point highlight the fact that although I stopped channelling in August 2017, I still continued working as an astrologer up until October 2018, at which time I fully renounced EVERYTHING metaphysical, esoteric and of the occult as a whole.

Many still in the New Age and supporting channelling, or channels themselves, ask me how did we know they are evil? and how dare we make such accusations! This is how we know. These demons posing as ascended masters and star beings reacted viciously when my husband and I broke away from them. Not the kind of reaction you’d expect from “caring and loving beings of light,” right? They showed their true colours immediately as they went out of their way to destroy us on as many levels as possible. At one point we thought my husband had stomach cancer he was so ill, he was so severely psychically attacked at another point that he was hospitalized with boils on his body that had to be drained in theatre under general anesthetic; he was in terrible pain and discomfort. On another occasion following this we had him in the E.R because he was in agony with kidney pain. The doctors could find nothing wrong with him. The same kidney attacks were happening to one of my three sons too. All 5 our children were experiencing demonic attacks in their sleep and seeing entities in their bedrooms. Their behaviour changed too. Our 3 year old niece who was living with us at the time, bawled constantly. These forces tried everything to break up my marriage and cause as much fear and stress as possible. They did, however, succeed in splitting up our relationship with some family members. Our animals were dying – 2 dogs and a cat, not to mention the dead birds we would find lying all over the garden at times. Food would spoil all the time and we were hemorrhaging money as a result of the all the “unexpected” expenses that were relentlessly coming up. And to top it all my group was under psychic attack too and eventually I was left with 10% of my group and clients in tact. It was insane!

You need to understand this was no small move we made. I was very good at what I did, I travelled the world doing their work and spreading their doctrine through my channeling and Planetary Stargate and Portal work I was doing. My family’s entire livelihood came from my business, so crippling us financially and placing me under as much stress and overwhelm as possible was the main aim to begin with, until August 2018 when I buckled under the pressure and snapped calling for help from a place inside of myself I’d never reached out from before. Yet, it still took a further 2 months before I was fully in the safe custody of our Sovereign Lord. As I write this it is February 2019, 18 months since our breakaway and things continue to change. Radical faith and trust is what now gets us through every day.

Throughout these 18 months we have had to regroup monthly in order to adapt to the constant change happening in every area of our lives, and in November 2018 both my parents started relying more on me for support and caretaking, another blow as their health began deteriorating rapidly because this meant I had hardly any time to get to my work duties meaning our finances depleted even further. On the 17th of January 2019, my mother passed away leaving my father behind. Feeling lost and alone after 55 years of marriage to my mom and his health being unstable too, my hubby and I moved back into my childhood home. Not only were we moving back into my childhood home because my dad needed us, but also because we could no longer afford to pay rent where we were staying and were evicted.

This might not sound too hectic in terms of the struggles some of you might have faced or are facing, however, please bear in mind that I had walked away from my life’s work – 21 years. I was about to complete my doctorate in metaphysics and launch a new body of astrological work I’d developed myself. My family was now in financial distress because 90% of my group did not resonate with the changes I made in my life, however, it was only in November 2018 that I fully and completely gave my life to Jesus Christ.

The move back into my childhood home happened on the 29th of January 2019 and another cycle of change greets us. I ran away from home at the age of 17, so coming home 35 years later has been a huge step, yet I am more at peace than I’ve ever been before. This is purely because I have found peace in the presence of Jesus Christ walking with me all day, every day. We are facing change that has “set us back” decades, but it doesn’t matter because for the first time in my life I know what the authentic living Holy Spirit feels like, how it truly comforts. Never in my life have I ever experienced the love and comfort that I have in the arms of Jesus Christ. No ascended master ever made me feel this loved, at peace and safe.